(Minghui.org) I had been illegally arrested multiple times before 2004 and developed the attachment of fear when it came to talking to people about Falun Gong. For those who appeared to be trustworthy and amicable, I dared to approach them; for those who did not, I would shy away.
As I continued to study the Fa and send righteous thoughts, my attachment of fear gradually faded. However, my tendency of being selective remained stubborn. I more readily talked to a relative, friend, or innocent farmer than to someone who looked like a government official or dressed fashionably.
Once there was a woman in her 50's who always dressed nicely and often appeared in the area where I worked. As I gradually became familiar with her, I started talking to her about Falun Gong. She was very receptive to understanding the concept of karmic retribution and how Heaven will ultimately eliminate the Chinese Communist Party (CCP). She mentioned that her husband, a college teacher, knew a lot about the CCP's history.
I gave her the Internet blockade breaking software and helped her withdraw from the CCP and its affiliated organizations. When I handed her a Shen Yun Performing Arts DVD, her eyes immediately lit up, “I have seen you handing out those DVD's for a long time and was thinking why not me. I have been waiting for you to give one to me.”
Recognizing My Attachment
I could not hold back my tears. Sentient beings are indeed waiting to be saved. My human attachments had been preventing me from saving more people.
Three years ago several people came to work with me on business. After the work was done, I chatted with them and brought up topics such as the CCP's history, Heaven eliminating the CCP, rampant gangs in today's society, and the corruption of government officials. In the end they all happily withdrew from their CCP memberships.
I was trying to clarify the truth to a government official one day when he appeared to be somewhat resistant. I said to myself, “I am able to and must save you today.”
I handed him a newspaper promoting tourism in Guizhou Province and talked about the area where there was a stone engraved with the words “Chinese Communist Party Collapses.” He immediately became interested. And after carefully examining some pictures of the rock, he decided to withdraw from the CCP right away.
Two of my ancestors were killed in the upheaval of the political movements launched by the CCP. As a result, the older generations in my family harbored two emotions toward the CCP: hate and fear. They did not dare to speak a single word that might jeopardize their lives.
Several relatives in my generation became government officials, which prevented them from opening their eyes to the fact that the regime will ultimately fall under the weight of its own evil nature.
They had extended a helping hand during the hard times of my arrests, but would not listen to me when I tried to clarify the truth to them. Years of trying and failing made me feel very hopeless in my reaching out to them.
Through careful and devoted Fa study, I realized human notions and emotions were interfering with my family interactions. I talked to my brother-in-law again about Falun Gong and he said to me: “You have your belief and I have mine. I don't meddle with your belief so you should not meddle with mine either.” I told him, “What I am doing is most important. I just want you to be safe and sound.”
He seemed to be thinking about it, and then I said, “the CCP claims they believe in communism, but look at the tremendous disproportion of wealth in today's society. Obviously, even the CCP does not believe in communism any more. Why should you? Let me come up with an alias for you and you can withdraw from your CCP membership right now.” He agreed.
